Sat, 03 Jan 2004, 16:16
I'm heavy into duality... dark/light, female/male, cold/hot, smart/dumb, in-motion/at-rest, blinky/steely-eyed, good/evil, cats/dogs...
I sandwiched the evil/good pairing in there with hot and cold because I don't want to get too value laden as this moves forward. Never-the-less, it's been my experience that I could conceive of doing a lot more wicked stuff when I was loaded than I can imagine actually doing when I'm sober.
Evil's a heavy word. Maybe "bad" will suffice; but not "good" bad, rather good old fashioned "bad" bad. yelling at people is not good. I think it is easier to raise my voice and assert my (dubious) rectitude when I'm loaded. Yelling is violent, and I think the boundaries of peaceful behavior blur, and the container dissolves in the solvent of alcohol. Many people, certainly myself included, find it easier when we drink to let go of our sense of what is good and right and slide off into behaviors that in the cold light of day we will remember as bad and wrong.
How bad does bad get before it's just plain evil?
* * *
Okay. That was heavy. Plenty of people drink just to get stupid and happy. They never ever slide off into situations that leave them tearful and full of remorse. But alcohol is a depressant, so the chances are it'll leave you crying once in a while. And they won't always or even often be happy tears.
TrackBack to this Entry
http://www.typepad.com/services/trackback/6a00d83451d1ab69e200d83459bd3169e2
Comments
I don't know what the number is now but when I was in detox and rehab they used to tell us that 80%+ of the people incarcerated in the US were intoxicated at the time they committed their crimes.
This central nervous sytem depressant suspends judgement initially, http://science.howstuffworks.com/alcohol4.htm creating instant Id or I want what I want and I want it now. I've seen plenty of truely Evil behaviour from intoxicated people and my worst moments were under the influence. Some of those could also be called evil.
